Can someone just listen please?

I just needed to get this off my chest as i am getting very depressed.I suffer from depression and i struggles through most days.I had been very happy recently because i was adopted by an Australian couple when i was a baby from an orphanage in Thailand.I have just found my birth mother.I am in contact through a friend in Thailand who translates all our letters and messages...I have now since found out she hasn't got long to live..I am so hurt as i have wanted this for so long and now i don't think i will ever meet her..maybe if a miracle happens and i win the lotto...i am not working due to my depression and i am feeling so lost..Thanks for listening everyone