Christmas is not joyful for me!?

Every year, Christmas has always been a nightmare to me! My family's always trying to suck the Christmas joy out of me!! My mom's always complaining how much she hates buying gifts(not that I ask her for some!). My dad's always yelling at people during Christmas Eve, because he's a Muslim. Today, my mom and sister yelled at me and called me an all because I put the ornaments in the wrong places of the tree. I want to commit suicide! I don't feel like I belong on Earth!!